Ask My Mom How She Is

I found this poem from a Mom who has lost two sons. She is a very sweet lady. I think this poem is really sweet and cute. I dont mean for it to be depressing, I just wanted to share it.



Ask My Mom How She Is

My Mom, she tells a lot of lies.
She never did before.
But from now until she dies,
She’ll tell a whole lot more.

Ask my Mom how she is,
And because she can’t explain,
She will tell a little lie,
Because she can’t explain the pain.

Ask my Mom how she is,
She’ll say “I’m alright.”
If that’s the truth then tell me,
Why does she cry each night?

Ask my Mom how she is.
She seems to cope so well.
She didn’t have a choice you see,
Nor the strength to yell.

Ask my Mom how she is.
“I’m fine. I’m well. I’m coping.”
For goodness sake Mom, just tell the truth.
Just say your heart is broken.

She’ll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
She’ll lie and say she’s fine.

I am here in Heaven,
I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you don’t listen,
Hug her and hold her near.

On the day we meet again,
We’ll smile and I’ll be bold.
I’ll say, “You’re lucky to get in here, Mom,
With all the lies you’ve told!”

Dan's July decorations

Dan has so many fun toys and 4th of July decorations right now. I love going to visit and seeing if there is something new there that someone has left for him.

Dan's NILMDTS pictures

(Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep)
These pictures were taken at Primary Children's hours after Daniel was born. They were taken right after he was taken off of all the life support machines. They told us he probably wouldn't survive longer than 5 minutes because he was getting worse on the machines. He was truly a fighter. I think he knew how bad I wanted to get more pictures. (We have 2,000+) Thanks for being so tough Dan, I have so many beautiful pictures of you!

Father's Day

Father's Day was hard for us this year, but it was a good time to be grateful for all of the wonderful memories we have with our amazing Daniel Mark. I have SO many pictures of Dan with his adoring Daddy. Here are just a few.

I couldn't have asked for a better Daddy for my sweet little boy. I know Dan loves his Daddy so much! Happy Father's Day Tyler- I love you!

When we first brought Dan home from the hospital, one of the first things we did was show him his awesome super mario nursery that his Daddy did for him. I don't know how Tyler felt, but the Drs made me feel like he would be lucky to leave the hospital, let alone make it home. When we got home we got really overwhelmed so we decided to sit down in the rocking chair and rock Dan, and read him a story. It happpened to be the story of Easter. I'm so glad Dan was here with us for Easter this year. It was a very special Easter.

I just remember crying and thinking of the resurrection and knowing that Dan's heart will be perfect. Oh how I miss him. It's so hard to rock in that rocking chair without him.

If you think I'm cute...

This picture of Dan was taken before we came home from the hospital. We didn't have any of Dan's clothes or blankies at the hospital with us yet, because we were expecting him to be in the CICU for 3-6 weeks after his first surgery. (I thought I would have had time to go pick something out for him, too) I had to have Aunt Chelsie and Uncle Nash stop at our house on their way to the hospital to get some things. I had her get his famous green and brown minky couture blankie, and a few onesies. One specific onesie was the one that said "If you think I'm cute, you should see my Aunt Daylan" a custom onesie that Auntie Daylan made for Dan. I absolutely love it and think its so cute and since Aunt Daylan got it for him I wanted him to wear it. It was the first outfit that our little Dan wore (well besides the white one he wore in his NILMDTS pictures.) I thought for sure it would fit him perfect, but it was a little big. Little did I know, Dan would be wearing ALL the newborn clothes that he had, I even had to go and buy some more!

Tonight Tyler and I went to the cemetery to visit Dan. The sprinklers had just turned off so the grass was soaking wet. I made a "temporary headstone" so we will have a picture of Dan to kiss as we leave- until we get the real headstone ordered. Grandpa Mark had a visit with Dan earlier today, and he brought him some ninja turtles! Pretty awesome. :)